Rabu, 25 Mei 2011
Kamis, 19 Mei 2011
Senin, 18 April 2011
love story
LOVE GO
When the course was so fast. Soon he will be aged 35 years. And other friends are cool kids rocked. At the heart is very lonely. I will actually need attention and love. But I'm afraid to start. Not many women I know around my life. maybe I have been broke.
True say, when women drop out of love, they will grow more beautiful and stylish. When a man breakup increasingly dull, orderly life and look ngak increasingly ugly. That's what happened to me. in a period of 3 years with the Vienna go away, when Vienna preaching she received from her mother's fiance. For him it is a made-up excuse.
"O soul that is in a sense and myself, whether I'm too much of a dialogue with myself, so I'm less able to communicate with the neighborhood? Am I was the one who always thought niggling in this life? Am I too selfish to myself?" the question is pushed inward and playing in my heart I grew reverie shattered.
This is love to the 2 that ran aground. One year I was a mess until I had almost laid off from work. For if it rarely came to work and enter the wrong ngak no work on time. Luckily my boss is very kind to me and often give a zest for life. Habit of drinking at the bar this year had he stopped. And he never disgrace again with tellers at the bar or on the street.
Darkness in my thoughts often do not like bright sunlight. I saw the dazzling light, the heat makes the forehead sweat. I can only wipe the sweat with my arms as a sign that I was exhausted. Where could I take a handkerchief from home with my condition then. "Oh God, it seems I no longer able to endure all of this," was seething inside me.
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At seven o'clock in the afternoon had arrived, I hurried home to keep my promise to meet with Vienna at a favorite restaurant. And We also sat together at a dining table. For dinner.
Fluorescent light Vienna transformed into a beautiful angel, my thrill. That was presumably the result of my brain projector. White skin can not be burned by the rays were,, moments like this my heart
need to quell mounting romance when I miss you after 3 years have passed. Fill my heart was unable to get out of mulutka. Ah, who could do just silent, speaking only capable through dreams or when He was again alone.
Vienna turned out to have changed, getting fatter and not as pretty as her face first. There was the look of suffering in her eyes. When finished eating they talk to the heart of the matter. There was no tear in the face of Vienna. I was suddenly moved. The story that he was accusing me quite a shock to me. I think Vienna would be happy life.
Apparently no such guess. Her husband was a don juan. Women have much savings. Rarely go home and if home was just an argument that exists. Since her first child was born her husband changed. Rude and abusive.
I just paused and was speechless. I was someone else now for Vienna. And it will not be back as before. I am aware, no good for me to be a third person in the family of Vienna. It will add new problems.
Reverie back buyar.wina me realize, probably because my heart was always comforted myself that this lonely, can make me smile bright with no load before Vienna.
"Gus .. sorry ya Vienna. Vienna has destroyed your liver, the small heart of Vienna, Vienna still loves you. And will not disappear until whenever, thanks you have been willing to accompany you tonight." Vienna even kissed my cheek before passed taxi home.
Without felt it was getting late, and during the trip home, I am endlessly grateful. Very narrow time must kusyukur. Moon night right in the middle when the tones that suddenly disappeared replaced extraordinary silence. The silence that brought me realize that I actually own, and I had accustomed himself became frightened, not scared because I was alone here, but fear of loneliness is always alone, like now. I remained silent for contemplating loneliness, why do I always want to own? and many times I try to live with another person was still not comfortable do not like when I'm alone. Maybe I always miss my loneliness.
Pensive ... I must say I do not know what. I'm in the wrong position. However feel like still there. But his love was lost for me to go home Wina.Saat faintly audible on the radio in my car song from "Goodbye sweet lover ... that led to burning ... This story is too beautiful live tuk it all". Without realizing the tears rolling down her cheeks. "Servant of God ... strengthened the faith" I pray. And I realized I could not have me anymore .. Vienna let me go enjoy the beautiful yourself only in the shadow of lonely.
I kept praying to God. "O Allah, verily I was weak, strengthen me and I was humiliated me and I will honor poor then I kayakanlah O Essence of the Most Gracious. Let me remove sincere in Vienna. Your destiny is real everything to me. Go in love with the flavor that always kujaga . Grab your life. Was not love does not have to always have? " Just the thought in my mind now.
This story is only a mere fiction, if there are common names and the story is not accidental.
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